5 years ago I woke up in disbelief

Today, as you may have noticed in the popular media is yet again Sept 11.
9/11
The day America was brought to its humbled knees through a tragic act of violence.
In the papers today were memorials to lost Canadians and Americans alike, as well as walks of life from all over the planet. Culture is a barrier we see through, what we lost were humans, living breathing humans were destroyed on this day.

It seems like yesterday, it is so clear in my mind. I stumbled from bed at 6pm to catch the evening news before trotting off to my night shift job. I stared at the television in disbelief, such confusion rolled over me, was I still dreaming? Did I hear that right? What the fuck did she say?
Then like lightening it hit me, a tsunami of hysteria, I began to chuckle, slowly at first but then as the seconds past I became overwhelmed by laughter. Soon I fell to my knees, uncontrollably bursting at the seems.
Josef must have been awake or woke by the sound of me gasping for air, by the time I was able to clear the tears from my eyes I watched it unfold in him. A glazed look of shock, confusion, Am I still sleeping? Why is James rolling on the floor? What the fuck did she say?

I'm certain that the need to laugh at these things is both natural and necessary in some cases. For Myself, it must have seemed truly like a joke, a gag, some prank... This lady on the TV station wasn't showing any emotional difficulty with what she said was happening, so why would I, yet the impact of the images, planes into buildings... How on earth you even begin to respond to such despondency?

That was five years ago
now we hardly bat an eyelid at the news, Americans kill Canadians with friendly fire; "a fact of life" I heard one man say.
Canadians send 15 Tanks and 120 troops to Afghanistan, YET AGAIN.
I understand the need for a military, a strong one at that, but what is happening here is a trigger itch response to a problem that isn't ours, a solution that doesn't involve us, a war that has never been ours to fight.
This ideal of western civilization, is that what gives us the right to forcefully impose our values onto another nation, that we killed and raped and pillaged to get where we are today is grounds to stand on when we tell others they have no right to rape and pillage whom they want, then as a means of resolution we continue to rape and pillage them for raping and pillaging their neighbor?.... What the fuck?!
And is it so much better now that in the name of national defense we have the obligation to stand up for ourselves? Excuse me but there isn't anyone attacking us. The only ones we have to defend ourselves against is the USA, Where will they go when there isn't any oil left over seas and in south America? North of course!
To what degree will we bend over with a smile and say "please, Mr. President I prefer it dry!".
where are our scruples to stand up on our own two Canadian feet and say ENOUGH IS ENOUGH ALREADY!
5 years!
5 fucking years overseas, fighting and killing killing and raping, raping and pillaging! Would you go to war? Would you go right now to represent Canada in a country that doesn't want us there, would you fight for this cause; profit?
I'm sickened, 5 years later and its still all over the news, as though we need to remember in order to justify our actions in Afghanistan today and for the past 5 years, as though this crusade isn't just a march for oil.
But the oil isn't in Afghanistan James!
thats right, so it makes perfect sense to have a war there, to draw a divide between China and the worlds richest natural gas pipeline, to keep them out of Iraq, to keep the oil closer to America.....
I'm sick of it *blaw*